The EX

Today my ex girlfriend texted me saying she was sorry and that she wanted to make up. I wasnt going to listen. I was just sick of it all.

She made my life a living hell. I tried everything I could to be the perfect boyfriend but it was never enough.

From the time that I woke up to the time I went to bed I tried to make her happy. I would always make her breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I would wash and fold all of the laundry. Clean all of the dishes. I was the one that made the budget and would pay all of the bills. I bought and put away all of the groceries. And when a problem came up that she couldnt handle. I would fix it and make it all better.

And what would I get back? Nothing, no love or affection. She would give me a good fight or argument about what I was doing wrong. If I was sick she wouldnt take care of me. When I was sick she would go out of her way to make me feel worse. That broke my heart.

I treated her like a queen and she treated me like dog shit. Then one day I couldnt take it anymore and I left. My family came over and moved me out. That day I felt defeated.

Now Im much better, stronger, and smarter from the experience. Everyday I feel better about myself. Im happy now and I dont want to be sad anymore.

Heres a song by Seether. It reminds me that its going to get better.



Seether-Fine Again


It seems like every day’s the same
and I’m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there’s no color to behold
They say it’s over and I’m fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
‘cause I can’t seem to get this through
You say it’s over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well

And I’m not scared now.
I must assure you,
you’re never gonna get away
And I’m not scared now.
And I’m not scared now. No…

I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everything’s gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself