Just when you thought

Just when you thought your alone, somebody is just as alone as you. And your worlds collide. As I write these words I feel good. I feel "thought of". I feel not as alone as before. I feel better. I feel so close yet so far away.

Everything in my life seems to be getting better. Not better.....greater.

Im just along for the ride.......lets see where it goes.

Lost but at the same time determined

I know what I want out of life. But getting there is taking forever. My school, love life, and my kids have an ultimate goal. Its just taking forever. I want to graduate already. I want to be married and settled. And I want the best for my kids.

Im envious of my sibling who have all of this. They all have there careers. Are married and have everything in there life in order.

I havent accomplished these things yet and they look at me like Im a loser. They dont look at what Im doing now. Just at all of the mistakes Ive made in my life.

Im focusing on myself and my kids and nobody else. They are all I need now. They keep me going. They look up to me. They think Im the greatest. And I try to be.

Into the unknown

Im moving into a new place this weekend and the idea is kinda freaking me out. You see Ive never lived alone. Ive always lived with roomates, girlfriends, family members, or my exwife.

Whats freaking me out is that I wont have anyone to talk to. I will be there alone all week. Saturday through monday I will have my kids. Other than that it will be just me...by myself. Having nobody sucks at this point.

Up until this point Ive been living with my parents for a couple of months. This wasnt my choice of course. I left in the middle of the night when I left my exgirlfriend. I had no other option at that point.

Only time will tell what will happen.